Not so well :-(

I’m officially an IDIOT!!! I was feeling so good today that i thought id plant a few of the flowers i bought 3 days ago. I pottered about a bit in the garden and thought I’d just do a couple of pots and then stop. I leant on the fence and had a lovely chat with Pete and then Vera (my lovely next door neighbours) and remember telling Vera that for the first time in, probably about 2 years, i was actually feeling myself and feeling really well. Yea? So what went wrong? I have no idea! I didn’t want to go mad but i do remember a thought flitting through my head that id get this done and then i could clean the house tomorrow. Ey?? What happened to my sane thinking of yesterday? It was only a thought but i wonder if somehow just by thinking it and not slapping it down with an ‘oh no you’re not!’ thought my brain thought that id agreed?

Im also wondering if by the time you’ve (I’ve) done too much something has kicked in that means you (I) cant stop. I kidded myself that as i was feeling so well i could go on a bit longer, then a bit longer, i felt tired, had forgotten to eat, or drink anything, then my back started to ache and still i didn’t stop.  There was so little left to do? NO! There was loads left to do – im such a liar!! I did think of stopping and leaving the clearing up til tomorrow but did i? Obviously not!

I even kidded myself that if i used the dust pan and brush rather than the yard broom it was better for me. That was true (to start with) because i tried the broom first and it immediately made me feel ill. When i say ill i mean that i could tell that it was really bad for me although i cant really explain it – i  need to work that one out. Its a bit like when i take a sip of red wine – i get a jabbing pain in my temple immediately if its going to give me a head ache and feel nothing if it wont. Ive tested this theory (many, many times) and its always right – I’ve had a few too many massive, almost migraine like headaches from wine to know not to ignore that now,  however nice the wine is. Ive also had a few,  yes I’m afraid so …. smug mornings without a headache after drinking copious amounts of red wine :-).   I think that what happens when I’m doing something that is going to make me ill – is that my body sends out some warning signals or something because if i stop straight away it stops. Anyway  …… i stopped and then had a brainwave – small side to side  movements …. oh yes … this was a genius idea …….. id gently clear the yard with a dustpan and brush and it worked! So instead of just doing what i intended this is where it all really went wrong.  I finished the clearing up on the patio and then decided that the rest of the bridge could do with a sweep (when i say bridge – i have a river running past my back door -the bridge is house width and, with the patio, its just as long so its not a small space). I just wanted to get it all finished ………….. so i did! And now im paying for it! I am exhausted, have pains in my legs, my glands are up, and i ache all over! Im officially an IDIOT!!