Mystery solved

Ive worked out why i couldn’t write (its been days and days and i couldn’t think of  a single word)…………  its because i was confused about everything. My brain was in ‘grey fog’ mode nothing made any sense. I couldn’t think about anything for more than a few seconds, if at all, and there was absolutely nothing there to mull over. I think it must have started because i got a bit stressed about something ( it was a week ago and i know what it was … bloomin men ) and that may have triggered off the brain fog. I started to feel a bit manic yesterday so i stayed quietly at home (nothing unusual there then) and did absolutely nothing (nor there) not even on computer, so that i didn’t build up any massive adrenaline levels and i think that may have worked because today my head felt normal again. My legs are killing me today (hurt when i walk and are agony to touch) but I’m amazed that my glands aren’t up, i have a good appetite, i don’t feel sick, no headache (it went yesterday but id had one for 5 days before that and nothing would shift it), i don’t feel completely exhausted but i have had a few very warm moments today and my hearts a bit fluttery so there is probably still a bit too much adrenaline floating around in my system and I’ll probably pay for this tomorrow.

I’m seeing Michelle my Occupational Therapist tomorrow morning and I’m really looking forward to it again. There is so much to learn and so many questions to ask. I think I’ll see what she has to say and not ask too many questions.

Thank goodness I’m out of the fog and can function again. I don’t think I’ve ever been there for that long before. When i  got stressed about anything in the past id end up manic and  all my thoughts would be racing around, chasing each others tails in a big lump right at the front of my brain. It was so recently they were there and it was so awful i can almost still feel them which i know sounds a bit bizarre but its almost as if it was so bad they’ve left a mark. I wondering if that might have started to come back and my brain shut down – I’m not sure about that one so i think i will ask Michelle tomorrow (must write it down or i will forget). My memory has been awful over the last week as well i cannot remember anything. I also just  remembered that the day it started i was really clumsy all day. I dropped everything and was spilling drinks and knocking into things. I had to really concentrate hard to do anything. I remember that because i was planning on writing about it and then the fog must have come down and i completely forgot every little piece of information id stored up to write. I cant believe its all back now. This ME/CFS is one crazy mother! I can imagine reading this tomorrow and realise none of it making any sense at all 🙂